Happy Birthday Dad!

Today would have been my dads 62cd birthday.  So in a tradition my husband and I started after he passed we will have steak and Idahoans for dinner.  My dad couldn't stop talking about Idahoans towards the end of his life.  They are instant mashed potatoes that are actually not to bad.  I usually HATE instant potatoes but one night he made me try them and I was surprised that I could stomach them.  He was so proud of himself when they went on sale and he bought the store out.  When he passed away I made sure I took all 15 bags of them that he had stocked up on.  He would have been upset if they had went to waste.  It's amazing it has been almost 4 years since he died.  Sometimes it feels like yesterday.  I always get a little down on his birthday and they day he passed.  This birthday is a little different because I keep thinking he will never get to see his granddaughters.  I have his blue eyes and I wonder if they will as well.  I sometimes think how he would have reacted when I told him we were going to have twin girls!  I wonder how he would be when they got here.  When they first told me my due date I was a little sad because it is the day before the anniversary of his death and I really don't know how I feel about that so when we found out it was twins I was a little relieved that most twins come at 37 weeks so it put me due in November.   So I will be a little sad today and remember all the things I loved about him.

My dad and I tying my first fly which he named "Ems the Fly"