Monday, February 28, 2011

New Week

Yesterday I started my lupron injections.  Yesterdays I barley felt, only when I put pressure on the injection site.  Today I did it on the opposite side on my stomach and it hurt a little more.  As for side effects I am not sure if I was tired all day yesterday because of the lupron or if I was just tired.  We will see as time goes on.
Yesterday, Abby, Sara, Jenny, Lesa and I all went to Bead It.  We all made awesome jewelry!  It was also very relaxing.
Today I start in the Tilton store.  I am sad to have left Concord but I know it is the right choice for me.  Saturday night all of the Concord crew went to the Olive Garden and we all had a great night!
School also started today so I really need to plan time management because I want to make sure IVF doesn't get in the way of homework.  I really hope school helps me keep my mind of IVF and keeps me somewhat calm.  We will see!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Wordless Wednesday (A Day Late)- New things I am doing next week

Heading back to school

Start Injections

After a lot of thought relocating my job to the Tilton store.  I am sad to leave Concord but excited to see what Tilton brings!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

A week away!

I can't believe I start my injections a week from today!  I am almost there! I think once the injections start the rest will fly bye! I know the cycle doesn't actually start until the stimulation injections but that is not to far off.  At the end of next month I could be PREGNANT!! I really really hope I am!
This week has been really hard.  This birth control has screwed my system up.  I have been sick all week
with the flu and then a cold.
I also start a class next week.  I am going to get as many classes in as possible in the upcoming months.  I really want to finish a degree.  I thought a 5 week accelerated class would be good to take my mind of everything IVF.  So this week will be long and boring I am sure.  If someone told me years ago I would be excited to be giving myself injections I would have thought them crazy, but here I am excited!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Just had to add another picture of this guy....He is too hot for his own good!

Missing Crystal...she is in here today (also wicked jealous!)

Cutest onesie ever! Hope I can use it this year!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


I have no idea if I am having side effects from the birth control pills?! Since taking them I get nauseous every night on my way home from work.  Like so nauseous that if I didn't know better I would have thoughts that I could be pregnant.  Obviously that isn't the case but I find it weird.
Oh and as for the practice shots I did on Sunday, Boy did they leave a mark!  I have a GIANT purple bruise so I can only imagine how I am going to look when I start the real injections.
On a side note someone told me about a show called "Spartacus" that I can stream from netflicks.  It is a great show minus the bloody gore and a little unnecessary "intimate" moments.  The show was defiantly geared towards men, although the main character is definite eye candy for woman.  I like how they do some of the action sequences, it makes the show really exciting.  I read up on the actor that plays Spartacus and was said to see he is suffering from cancer and had to take season 2 off for treatment.  I hope he gets better soon.  Well off to work.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

And So It Begins........

I have had a very busy and stressful week!!! First I started the "prep"for our cycle on Thursday! It was defiantly a little anticlimactic!!! I started the BCP and then thought "WOW, this is boring!"  I did have an appointment that day to see my nurse Jessica to go over my medications and label everything.  I dragged my box of tricks to her office and boy did we go through EVERYTHING!  Then she handed me a little red folder that looked like a day planner and said that Nate and I can have a practice round of shots.  Inside the folder thingy was a Gonal F pen filled with saline and 2 needles.  In my mind this made the day a little more interesting.  I also showed her that I had gone off the deep end and purchased a fertility bracelet.  The stones in it are suppose to help and the elephant means something fertile  as well.  She laughed and said that in Reading, MA (where my retrieval and transfer will happen)  they have statues of fertility gods in the embryo room.  I thought that was funny.  I personally believe in one God but hey if it will bring me and my embryos luck I''ll try just about anything.  So after the meeting I headed home with my shots and a bottle of champagne.  That night Nate tried giving me a shot.  I didn't feel it go in at all!  That was a great sign!  Then he injected the saline!!! OMG that stung soooooo BAD! He couldn't even give me the whole shot.  It stung for about an hour total! So at that point I was not looking forward to the February 27th when the injections start!
The next morning I woke up and something happened that has never happened before.  TMI- it burned sooo much to pee!  I was running late so I got ready and went to work.  About 2 hours into work it hurt even more so in true Emily fashion I freaked out.  My biggest fear was that I had a UTI and the antibiotics they would prescribe would negate my BCP and my cycle would be ruined.  So I called Dr. Hill's office and braced myself for the worst.  They said it wouldn't hurt anything but said I need to see my primary care to get it cleared up ASAP.   So after running around friday and clearing it up I ended up in bed at 8pm because I was so stressed and tired.
After all that, last night I came home from work and Nate handed me a glass of wine and told me not to go into the kitchen.  To me a guy cooking and letting me relax is the best gift EVER!  He cooked a great dinner and we celebrated Valentines Day early because I have to close my store on Monday.
I haven't had to take these in a LOONG time

The practice shots

My fertility bracelet 

So after all the stress and excitement of the week I was feeling pretty relaxed this morning, so I decided to try the second shot my self in my stomach.  I took a deep breath and thought I was going to pass out.  I just thought of a baby or two playing on my living room floor and just did it.  It stung a little when I injected the saline but overall its really doable!  So now I am not as scared anymore.  I also know I will be giving myself all the stomach shots because I think I can handle it better when I am in control.  As for the butt shots well thats another story!

P.S I have no idea why the photos went to the middle of the post and I can't figure out how to move them!

Monday, February 7, 2011

A great "Last Weekend"

This past weekend my friend Ann and I braved the ice and snow to make it up to Ellsworth, NH to attend "The Batchelorette Party Continues...."  We spent the evening with Sara, Mary, Jenny, Abby, Al and Zack.  Yes, there were 2 guys that attended we like to call them our man servants. It was a really fun night!  This was the last "normal" weekend for a long time.  This week we start the prep for our first (and hopefully our last) IVF cycle.  All I am waiting for is Aunt Flo to grace me with her presence!  I know being on birth control for 18 days doesn't seem life changing but to me it is.  I also start fertility yoga, eating regiment of fertility super foods and keep my stress level WAY down.   I will also start some monitoring mostly blood work and ultrasounds.  My life will become all about timing, drugs, injections and emotional and physical ups and downs.  At the end of all this I really hope my dreams will become true!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Sick of February Already!

I can't believe how much snow we have and how much more we will be getting!!! I am ready for spring!  I loved last winter becuase by the end of February it was beautiful!  My major concern for february/March is what if we get a big storm when I need to be in Portsmouth for monitoring or worse we get a giant storm  when I need to be in Reading, MA for the transfer and extraction!  The extration is timed to almost the minute!  You can't even be 15 minutes late or  you have ruined the cycle so Nate and I have been considering staying in the closest hotel to the clinic and then sitting in their parking lot an hour early just to make sure we are covered!  If the extraction is later in the day then we might just leave with hours to spare.  If it is early in the morning we will get a hotel.   So its just another thing that is up in the air at this point. 

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Wordless Wednesday: This is crazy!

The snow is almost covering our fence!

Our front door!

Front door