Best explanation of motherhood!

‎This lovely story was written by Dale Hanson Bourke.
We are sitting at lunch one day when my daughter casually mentions that she and her husband are thinking of "starting a family." "We're taking a survey," she says half-joking. "Do you think I should have a baby?"

"It will change your life," I say, carefully keeping my tone neutral.

"I know," she says, "no more sleeping in on weekends, no more spontaneous vacations."

But that is not what I meant at all. I look at my daughter, trying to decide what to tell her. I want her to know what she will never learn in childbirth classes.

I want to tell her that the physical wounds of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will leave her with an emotional wound so raw that she will forever be vulnerable.

I consider warning her that she will never again read a newspaper without asking, "What if that had been MY child?" That every plane crash, every house fire will haunt her.

That when she sees pictures of starving children, she will wonder if anything could be worse than watching your child die.

I look at her carefully manicured nails and stylish suit and think that no matter how sophisticated she is, becoming a mother will reduce her to the primitive level of a bear protecting her cub. That an urgent call of "Mom!" will cause her to drop a soufflé or her best crystal without a moments hesitation.

I feel that I should warn her that no matter how many years she has invested in her career, she will be professionally derailed by motherhood. She might arrange for childcare, but one day she will be going into an important business meeting and she will think of her
baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every ounce of discipline to keep from running home, just to make sure her baby is all right.

I want my daughter to know that every day decisions will no longer be routine. That a five year old boy's desire to go to the men's room rather than the women's at McDonald's will become a major dilemma. That right there, in the midst of clattering trays and screaming
children, issues of independence and gender identity will be weighed against the prospect that a child molester may be lurking in that restroom.

However decisive she may be at the office, she will second-guess herself constantly as a mother.

Looking at my attractive daughter, I want to assure her that eventually she will shed the pounds of pregnancy, but she will never feel the same about herself.

That her life, now so important, will be of less value to her once she has a child. That she would give herself up in a moment to save her offspring, but will also begin to hope for more years, not to accomplish her own dreams, but to watch her child accomplish theirs.

I want her to know that a cesarean scar or shiny stretch marks will become badges of honor.

My daughter's relationship with her husband will change, but not in the way she thinks.

I wish she could understand how much more you can love a man who is careful to powder the baby or who never hesitates to play with his child.

I think she should know that she will fall in love with him again for reasons she would now find very unromantic.

I wish my daughter could sense the bond she will feel with women throughout history who have tried to stop war, prejudice and drunk driving.

I want to describe to my daughter the exhilaration of seeing your child learn to ride a bike.

I want to capture for her the belly laugh of a baby who is touching the soft fur of a dog or cat for the first time.

I want her to taste the joy that is so real it actually hurts.

My daughter's quizzical look makes me realize that tears have formed in my eyes. "You'll never regret it," I finally say. Then I reached across the table, squeezed my daughter's hand and offered a silent prayer for her, and for me, and for all the mere mortal women who stumble their way into this most wonderful of callings.

Never a dull moment!

One of my best friends flew in from NH this past weekend and we had a blast!  We took the girls to the Y to swim.  They LOVED it!  We did as well since it was 30 degrees outside and we haven't swam since August!  I am so happy that they love water since I am such a water person!  I am still wondering how I am going to like Ohio in the summer since it doesn't have a ton of lakes with in a 20 mile radius! We also had a fun girls night with some of my new friends here!  It was surreal to see my new friends with my old and was a nice feeling!  Anyway, we also went to Polaris which has a cool indoor/outdoor type mall.  Plus a Cheesecake Factory! I love cheesecake!   I did find the lunch a bit over priced and the spinach cheese dip was very bland for almost 11$.  Their cheesecake is sooo worth it though!  I had the red velvet and it was amazing.  It even topped the red velvet cupcakes from Boston Children's. I don't think I blogged about them last April when Liv was admitted but I should have because they were really good. 
She was here from Thursday to Sunday...Far to short for me:(  I was sooo excited she was able to come out and see where we live. 
Yesterday was the girls 15 month check up....I can't believe they are 15 months already!  Aria is a little over 20lbs and Liv is 18.  She is now in the 3rd percentile for weight so we are doing well!  There has been something bothering me for a while now and they brought it up at our appointment after a few small test.  The girls language.  They don't seem to be communicating as well as most kids their age.  They hardly say mama and dada let alone 5-8 other words.  I mentioned it to my mom about a week ago.  So our pedi refereed us to a speech therapist. I am not super worried because I know they grasp things and I am sure it will come but I wouldn't mind the help since most days I feel like I have no idea what I am doing in the education sense.  I would also love for them to start communication a little better instead of crying all the time.  So thats what we are working on now. 

So sick of sick!

Worst winter of sickness EVER!  I just got over strep!  I have had strep once and I was a senior in high school!  So far the girls have not gotten it but I am still worried!  Between ear infections, the flu and now strep, I feel like we will never get out of this cloud of sickness!  Hopefully we will be over the worst of it and spring will soon be here.  I wonder if part of the issue is being couped up inside all the time.  Having 2 toddlers to get ready just to run to the store is in my opinion a HUGE hassle!  So I tend to do any runs to the store when Nate is home.  I can't wait until we can play outside or go some where with out all the bundling up!  Plus I like to see how long a gallon of gas can last me so I tend not to go anywhere unnecessarily.  I had a gallon last me almost 6 weeks!
Anyway, I guess thats all that has been going on.  In a week and a half one of my best friends from NH  will be here!!!! I am soo excited!  Hopefully we are all healthy for the visit!

A lot going on here!

Wow so much has happened and so much more is coming!  The first is I decided to watch an 11 month old 5 days a week.....BIG MISTAKE!  He screamed all the time so I stop that after a month!  Now Nate and I are taking a financial class we are learning a lot and hoping we can live debt free someday.
 We are also heading to Arizona in April.  4.5 hours on a plane with twins!  Yikes, I am a little scared! 
One of my best friends is coming out here at the end of the month and I can't wait!!! The adjustment to a new state hasn't been easy so having her here will be awesome!
On top of all that I decided to learn to sew!  I am hoping to get good enough to make the girls dresses and thing! 
I guess that is what is happening in our lives right now.  The girls are growing so fast!  Every day there is something new!  They both are quite funny to watch.  They are AMAZING! Sorry for the sporadic post;)

I have never missed a inanimate object so much!

I am so excited my Mac is fixed!!!  I am so happy to have it back!! I have missed everything about it.  So here are some cute videos of my divas!  The first video is Liv.  I decided to watch one of the step up movies one morning and apparently Liv thinks she belongs in the movie with her moves.  The second video is Aria laughing at Nate. 

Waiting for my Mac to be fixed!

Finally orders the part to fix my computer so I can post some holiday pics.  Unfortunately we were all sick.  So I didn't take all  the pictures I wanted to.
The girls are now almost fully walking!!!! It's a whole new wobbly world!  I am happy for this new stage but also sad...They are getting so big!  The "baby" bug is starting to unleash in me.  I know it would make sense to wait until the girls are at least 3 incase we get twins again but I have waiting and being patient!  So for now we shelf the topic because we know it is best. 

Broken Mac:(

A few days before Christmas my laptop stopped working.  I think it is my keyboard so I am just waiting for the part.  My husband was nice enough to bring his work laptop home for me this weekend so I could get some stuff done including blogging.  I logged onto blogger and have to congratulate a blogger friend.. they just adopted a beautiful baby boy!  I am sooo happy for them!
In Aria and Olivia news... We are walking!!!!  It is the cutest thing!  I will post videos when I get my laptop back.  They are so proud of themselves.
I also decide I didn't have enough to deal with and took on a 10 month old 5 days a week!  It is actuallly not that much more work.  Aria is having a little trouble with it and seems to be very territorial of me when he is here but over all it's going well.
We were all sick over Christmas and new years but as soon as i get my laptop fixed I will post some photos of the holidays.
I guess thats all for now!