4dp2dt

Well things have changed a little here.  Yesterday I had a bout of nausea.  After that no symptoms.  Just a very sore backside from the progesterone in oil.  Like really sore.  Then I woke up at 6am this morning and felt like I am not pregnant and was trying to think of ways to get enough money to do IVF again in a few months.  Then a while later Nate got up and went to shower.  He came back in and got his clothes and the whole room smelled like a floral sent. I asked him what he used and he said same thing I do every morning.  We have giant bottles of shampoo and conditioner that is flowery.  I have never smell it when he has come into get his clothes and he has been doing that for 7 years.  So is it a sign that my nose is more sensitive or am I trying to hard to feel something.  Oh and something really weird happened this morning....this might be TMI, but I fell back asleep and had an interesting dream which seemed really real and quite the erotic dream.  I woke up feeling like it was really real!  I don't know what that means?  So I have no idea at this point how I feel.  Right this second I feel nothing.

2dp2dt

I know it is probably to early for symptoms but I never get heartburn.  The only time I get it was in my last pregnancies.  This morning all of a sudden I get heartburn.  The doctor did say implantation would occur yesterday or today and I remember last pregnancy before I was nauseous, I was tired and had heartburn for like 2 weeks before I suspected I was pregnant.  I remember WebMD ing tired and extreme heartburn to see if I had some weird virus.  I don't want to read to much into it but I am really hoping that it is an early sign that my body is doing what it need to to keep the sweet peas safe and thriving!

1dp2dt (1 day post 2 day transfer)

I am feeling ok, a little crampy and have to pee a lot.  I can't take any allergy medication which is not fun.  I have allergies in full swing and even have a little asthma going on.  Every time I lay down I cough and I am scared that I am jostling the sweet peas around to much.  I am a little board with bed rest.  I can't seem to get into any seasons of tv shows.  I really wish I could fine a great TV show to watch.  If anyone has suggestions I would love to hear them.  I am enjoying Nate having to do everything.  He has cook some great meals and then cleaned up!  He even has a load of laundry going.  The only thing I am missing is a bell to ring him!

Our Sweet Peas

2 Amazing Sweet Peas!

This morning I had 2 beautiful embryos transferred!  I got to the clinic early and had to fill my bladder for the transfer.  By the time I went into the room I was very uncomfortable.  They let me let out some which was hard and I went back into the transfer room.  Boy was it tight.  My mom and sister Rachel came with Nate and I.  Then we had the doctor(not Dr. Hill but a nice, funny woman doctor), the ultrasonographer, and 3 embryologist.  They verified who I was and loaded up the catheter and then I heard the doctor say "transferring" and then it was done.  The doctor did complement my uterus.  She said it was beautiful and I made her job easy, so I am taking that as a good sign.  Then I had to lay with my feet up for 10 min and it was by far the worst 10 min of my life.  I thought my bladder was going to explode and paired with the cramps I was in agony!  I really thought I wasn't going to make it to the bathroom.  Finally the 10 min was up and I ran to the bathroom after flashing some nurses because I couldn't get the sheet around me fast enough.  After I finally had some relief the impact of what just happened hit me! I can't believe they are in me! I can't believe I made it this far! I had a lot of ups and downs and I just hope the good news keeps on coming.  The doctor today gave me a 50/50 chance.  Now I just sit and wait for the dreaded 2 weeks and try to heed the advice from all my family and friends to NOT taking any home pregnancy tests!  I will make an honest effort but I am not promising anything.

Friday is the big day!

Well the nurse left me a message on my cell phone.  I get no service at my house so I am annoyed that I couldn't talk to them in person and ask questions.  They said out of 7 eggs 5 matured and 3 fertilized and of the 3 two look really good.  So they are opting for a 2 day transfer.  I don't know if that is a good or bad thing.  The norm seems 3 or 5 day transfer.  So I am waiting for the office to call me back because I am freaking out a little.  I hope everything is good.  I might try to convince Dr. Hill to just put back all 3. I wonder if he would since one of them isn't as good.  The biggest lesson I have learned in this whole process is patients. This is a waiting game.  Do this and wait, do that and wait.  There are also hurdles at every turn and you just have to pray you jump them.  So right now I am just waiting to hear back from the office to get more clarification on what the grade of the eggs are and why they are choosing a 2 day.  So we wait again!

Lucky number 7!?!?

The egg retrieval went well this morning.  I had to be there by 9am and we ended up a stop and shop right down the road at 8am.  We just wanted to make sure we had plenty of time.  I bought pineapple to help my endometrial lining and gatorade because that is suppose to help you rehydrate better than water after an egg retrieval.  We then went to the office to have the procedure done and it started off a little painful.  It took 4 tries to get an IV in.  My right hand had a giant lump in it by the time they were done.  Finally I went in to get the procedure done and I remember looking up at the ceiling tiles and they started to move which freaked me out a little bit.  They told me to stop looking at it and just close my eyes but those tiles just looked weird and then I was out.  When I woke up I was in the fetal position in a lot of pain.  I remember Dr. Hill telling me we got 7 eggs and I think I started to cry because I thought I had way more and I was hoping for double digets.  He said it was great and my body responded well to the drugs when we upped it.

I really hope I have enough to implant 2 and have some to freeze. I guess it is about quality not quantity.  I do have to remember that I have made it this far and I should be thankful but it is hard.   So Nate and I are just watching movies all day and I am still in some pain but it is getting better.